Sunday, February 28, 2010

Cold Earth, Long Horizons

I read yesterday that Finnish people like to live spread out. There was a picture, brown mud in furrowed rows, stretching towards a grey horizon. An old tree slumped in the distance, his leaves muted grey-green and shy. Sleepy, quiet, foggy. Yes, foggy. Not a delicate mist that drapes itself around the sharp edges of branches, but a soft, rolling fog.

Finnish people are shy, said the book. They keep their happinesses close, and hidden. Sometimes, when the fog lumbers across the muddy fields, I think they take out their happinesses and stroke them.

An old farmer would line up all his happinesses in a meowing row and touch each one in turn. Some he strokes, starting with the tiny pink nose, running right along the bumpy spine, bumpy like the potholes in the fog covered road outside. With other happinesses, he can only manage to wind her tail around his calloused finger, before she jumps away. But with his favorites, he gathers them up in his arms, right under his chin, and feels their purrs resonate against his neck.

"Ed!" says his wife, "the calf didn't make it through the night."

When the fog mostly blows off, he goes outside and stands under the single, green-grey tree; looks at the veiled sun. His son told him once that the sun ruins your eyes. Ed didn't say anything, but he didn't do anything differently. He never did anything differently than it had always been done, if he could help it. Now his son was gone, and Ed could still see the fog.

In the winter the sun does not rise for 51 days. Snow covers the potholes and the dirt. The sky is grey, the ground is white, and the bark of the grey-green tree turns black. Ed and his wife, confident in their serenity, sit by the fire. Behind them, in a dark corner, flickering with shadows from the fire, sits happiness, washing her ears.

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a rare, lonely fish with
YOU!
which also tastes good
in her special peanut butter
sauce which she accidentally made too much of, maybe
because she was too busy
becoming a fan of switching on all the lights at 3am and laughing
like a maniac and 79 other profiles.
John 3:16 I seriously love
the weather and I love my friends and look a picture
of YOU doing a cartwheel
with your eyes crossed and I NEED
COFFEE!!!!! like I need something
clever, something new, something
borrowed, something blue, blue, that's how I feel
without you lalala, hahaha, jk, jk, I need to get off and study,
I'm so bored so call and we'll do
something, something is funny, something is awesome,
OMG, OMG, rofl, no you're not, liar, watch I can be
even more sarcastic more over
the internet than in real life
time is a vacuum and even the ads brag
SO addicting! SO why so what so
long where's the relationship? Relationship
status! Married to my best friend, dating a rock
star, everyone's awesome, unless they're now single
in which case, you wanna talk
about it, because I'm always here
for you, when all our friendship needs is
a few flicks to the keyboard, I love
you, g2g, ttyl! wave in the hall, but Facebook gives
you those inside jokes, so really, you're better
friends for it. Really! All 274 want to know
because you're so cute and always smiling, at least
in your profile picture, and always ready
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all your awesomeness and amazingness, and bad
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artificial happiness by a photoshopped head
Really?